Wednesday, May 12, 2010

A lesson learned and a heartache of memories to remind me to let love, love.

"The greatest thing you will ever learn is just to love and be loved in return" Eden Ahbez

"I Never Told You" by Colbie Calliat
Lyrics:
I miss those blue eyes
How you kiss me at night
I miss the way we sleep
Like there's no sunrise
like the taste of your smile
I miss the way we breathe

But I never told you what I should have said
No, I never told you I just held it in

And now I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
and after all the things we been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

I see your blue eyes every time I close mine
You make it hard to see
Where I belong to when I'm not around you
Its like I'm not with me

But I never told you what I should have said
No, I never told you I just held it in

And now I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
and after all the things we been through
I miss everything about you
Without you





Had I already learned the lesson before him than maybe my heart wouldn't feel the words Colbie Calliat beautifully sings. Yet its not because I never said I loved you...its because I couldn't just love and let him love me back without questioning why he did.

Even now, his blue eyes staring into mine is vivid in my mind making it hard to look at anyone else's eyes. Even now, the way we laid with each other so closely and our breath in unison makes anyone else's touch a waste of a feeling. Even now, I still miss everything about him. There's no way to fill the void in my life but I still continue to live because I had to learn my lesson in pain. And sadly, I learned this lesson from his posting of quotes on his FB profile.